Waiting For Tomorrow

Hello All, I want to remind you all, today, that YOU are worth it! YOU are VERY special to the Creator of the Universe! The proof of His existence is in the very essence of your being and in every little thing around you! YOU have a purpose ! YOUR life has a greater meaning than you or I can fathom! He knows YOUR name ! God is indescrible and is greater than anything we can EVER imagine, yet He chooses to use us! Psalm 8: 3-6 "When I consider Your heavens, the work of Your fingers, the moon and the stars, which You have set in place; what is mankind that You are mindful of them? Human beings that You care for them? You made them a little lower than the angels, and crowned them with glory and honor. You made them rulers over the works of You hands; You put everything under their feet."  I find it so humbling and comforting to think about this! It brings me to my knees, brings me to tears, and makes me feel so small, yet at the same time, so safe! I'd greatly encourage...

Be the reason someone smiles Be the reason someone chooses to live another day Be the reason someone chooses to question their belief that God doesn't exsist Be the reason someone chooses to read the Bible for the first time Be the reason someone's crappy day turns into a great one Be the change you want to see in this world Be the change you want to see in yourself Be the change you want to see in your significant other Be the change you want to see in your kids Be the light God has called you to be, because you may be the only Bible some people read and the only Jesus they see today Hey you guys, So, today, if you can't tell, I'm a bit fired about the subject of being a better me...and encouraging you to be a better you. haha! I've been stuggling a lot lately with lonlieness, sleeplessness, migraines, small, but still annoying, panic attacks, etc. etc. and the thing that's gotten me through this is God, first of all, and secondly, trying each day to encourag...

Hey Everyone, So, if you know me, personally, you know that I have a tattoo and recently added to it and if you don't know me, in person, it's a butterfly on my left arm with the word " Redeemed " next to it and then on my right wrist are the words, "by grace ;" I LOVE IT! Now, I know some people I know, and some people I don't, are greatly against tattoos and can't fathom why anyone would get them in the first place. I, obviously, don't think they are a bad thing and although I don't feel like I have to defend my choices to anyone, since it's my body and my life, I figured I'd share a little here why I got it. A few people I know, have shared their opinions on the fact that they don't like it, others have said they absolutely love it, and others have teased me (in a loving way of course :P) that I only got it to be cool or to look "tough", which is absolutely absured...I mean, how could a butterfly/hearts/fancy lines ...

Hey All, This blog post has been in my head for weeks, but I just haven't found the time to write it until now. The subject of women and men equality has been at the forefront of my thoughts a lot lately, and so, I figured it was high time, I got a few of my thoughts down. If you haven't noticed, there's a new trend going around in the music industry (and I'm sure others too, but music is my world so just go with it) about feeling good about yourself no matter your size. While this is good in and of itself, I don't agree with the way woman are going about doing it. There's Nicki's Anaconda, J-Lo's Booty, and Meghan's All About that Bass. Personally, I can't stand any of these songs (a shame, because, as the title suggests, Meghan's hit has got some pretty sick bass which sounds killer in my car) and hate it when people praise these woman on theses songs. I'm not saying they are bad people, I personally LOVE me some J-Lo, but I think these...

Hey All, So, I'm on the tailend of a migraine, am pretty tired and therefore, probably should be going to sleep now instead of sitting up in bed, blogging, but I had to get a few things out. While looking up a music video to a country song just now, I ended up stumbling upon a few others I hadn't heard of/seen (funny how YouTube just sucks one in, huh?) and in doing so, ended up seeing some comments under one of them that has gotten me quite annoyed....probably more so then I should be, but anyways. The song was about having fun in the summertime, nothing dirty about it, and granted the video did have girls in pretty skimpy bikinis, but that's besides the point. The top comment, was from this person who's username I can't remember except for the fact that it had the word "Jesus" in it and in this comment he was quoting the Bible. Mind you, I don't have any problem with the Bible, of course, and spreading the Truth around is always a good thing to do, b...

Hey Everyone, If you haven't picked up already, I am a HUGE Lecrae fan and will be til the day I die! haha! One of my biggest pet peeves is when people critize Christian rap and say it's impossible to have such a thing...let me tell you it is NOT! I get that it's "different" than what some may think of as Christian, but you know what, this is what the hip-hop culture NEEDS! DESPERATELY! We need someone to rap the gospel (he literally has multiple songs where he does this and it makes me tear up sometimes because it's just so cool)! We need people of different cultures, different walks of life, to all come together to further His Kingdom here on earth...if we were all the same, what good would that do? My all time favorite version of How Great is Our God , is the world edition, purely because it is sung in multiple differently languages and is just beautiful! I hate when people diss Lecrae, and his music, because it sounds "secular" and "world...

Hey All, So, I'm a huge Colton Dixon fan, and have been, since his first audition on American Idol. I love him because he's mega talented, shares my faith and was/is very open about it, loves Air1  (only the best radio station EVER lol), and, also, sang DAUGHTRY songs a few times on 'Idol' and they're my favorite band. haha! His new song More of You is one of my all time favorites, and truely is the cry of my heart! I made my castle tall I built up every wall This is my kingdom and it needs to fall I want you and no one else Empty me of myself Until the only thing that's left is More of You Less of me Make me who I'm meant to be You're all I want all I need You're everything Take it all I surrender Be my king God I choose More of You and Less of me I need more of you More of you This life I hold so close Oh, God I let it go I refuse to gain the world and lose my soul So take it all I abandon everything I am You can have it The only thing I need...

Hey anyone who happens to read this blog of mine, So, first off, I GOT THE JOB I INTERVIEWED FOR TODAY!!! It's a "trial basis" for two days next week, but I have confidence in my ability to do the job (it'll be dishes and prep work) so I'm sure it'll be longer than just two days. :) I can't wait to start! God is AWESOME! Anyways, so the topic for this post is purity. Sexual purity, and purity of our thoughts. I just want to start off, by saying that if you have had sex outside of marraige (espeically if you are a friend of mine) that I am not judging your choices (and if you are my friend, I most certianly don't love you any less), but I felt inclined to share some thoughts on this matter, in hopes that you will think about what God desires for you in this area of your life. I am human, obviously, so I totally get the desire to feel loved and wanted by other people, especially by a certain someone ;), but if he/she is pressuring you to compromise what ...

Hey All, So, last post, I mentioned that I felt like God might be trying to teach me how to trust Him more and let me tell you, if that's not His goal here, I don't know what is, because man, have I had to trust Him a lot lately! He's pulled through, and although I never doubted He would, exactly, I have found myself impatient with His "lack of doing anything," sometimes, and I'm sure He's been shaking His head at me a lot lately! haha! First off, I didn't end up moving into my apartment three days ago, instead, I'm still at camp, not my will, but Yours be done, right? ha! Well, when I first got told that I couldn't move in for a month, when I showed up at the place expecting to get my keys and begin moving in I was shocked and kind of freaking out inside wondering where in the world I was going to stay for the next month! God is AWESOME (and so are the people I work for) though, becuase they have provided me with a wonderful room to stay i...

Hello Everyone, A week from today I'll be going back to the apartment I was in last year, but this time I'll be alone. I've put an add on Craiglist, talked to numerous friends, posted on FB, etc. and just had no luck finding someone, locally, that wanted to move out or that wanted an apartment that was only for 9 months out of the year. To be honest, I don't have much of a desire to live alone, nor did I ever picture myself doing this...I'm a social person and thrive on being around people most of the time, I like to be alone too, but not for the most part. However, that said, with much prayer and in reading the book AHA by Kyle Idleman  I've been struck by being ok with this as well. I've decided that it's ok to not desire living on my own and to wish things were different, but I tried to change my situation and so, ovbiously, He has something different in mind for me. I don't know if it's just an issue of trust that He wants me to deal with o...

Hi All, I greatly apologize for my extreme lack of blogging this summer so far! I’ve been super busy with work (working 6 day weeks, pretty much from 6am-7:30pm) and when I’m not working, I’m busy resting/sleeping, or making memories with the people I work with. Also, I accidently got a decent amount of water on my computer and have been letting it dry out this week in an effort to fix it (and TA-DA/PRAISE THE LORD it worked)! Lately, I’ve been dealing with a lot of things that could really bring me down, and I’ll admit, some days I let them, although I’ve been trying really hard not to (with God’s help of course)! I’m looking for a new roommate/an additionol job, my back’s been hurting so bad I can barely sleep; I’ve been missing my two best friends A LOT, etc. However, the last few days, I’ve been able to let go and let God for the most part, and He’s given me such a peace about it all, that sometimes, I’ve been amazed at how calm I am. The title of this post was actually insp...

Hi Everyone, So who has seen the show Once Upon a Time? Well if you haven't, that's fine, you should be able to still grasp my point. I've been watching a lot of this show recently as I had three seasons to watch in a matter of weeks, since I don't watch much of anything once summer starts and I move into camp on the first of June! Currently, I'm three episodes away from the season three finale! For those of you who don't know what it is, it's a show combining fairy tale characters into an epic twist on stories we know so well and the modern world....it's very addicting! In this show, because they are people from fairy tales, they are constantly say, "have faith," "I believe," "you just have to have hope," etc. I don't have anything against the show or going to bash it in anyway (I mean if I thought it was a bad show I wouldn't have watched a season a week haha!), nor do I expect them to be saying these things with G...

Hey, So, Mandisa's song Back to You has been playing in my head a lot lately so I figured I'd share it with you guys. God has really been trying to drill into me that worrying will get me no where and that I just need to trust Him to take care of me. I can't not tell you how many times this subject has been the focus of "random" conversations I've overheard or been apart of, someone's FB status, or a song on Air1 , He really knows how to grab our attention! It's, also, been mentioned the last two Sundays at church and the song that we sang last week, that I hadn't heard before, Great Are You Lord , by All Sons and Daughters was along the lines as well! God is SO good!! I've been applying to lunch lady jobs for the Fall, as I need something in addition to camp, and the whole waiting process has been difficult along with knowing all the bills I have from surgery along with car stuff coming up as my birthday is in June. Through it all, there ...

Hi Everyone, Do any of you like Cher Lloyd? I LOVE her music! She's got such an attitude yet at the same time can sing beautiful, ballad like songs as well. Her song Love Me For Me has been something I've been playing on repeat the last few days...as well as her songs Oath and End Up Here . Love Me For Me and Oath are kind of opposites of each other and I'm pretty sure that we've all been on both sides at one point in our lives. I've been incredibly blessed to have had a close friend or two through each part in my life, but for whatever reason I've, also, lost quite a few. It can't help, but make me feel like there's something wrong with me even though looking back on the friends I've lost, I can't come up with, but a handful of times I could've done something different. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying I'm perfect by any means, but in general I'd consider myself a good friend and honestly, sometimes too good of friend whi...

Hi, So the last couple of days I've been listening to Hot Chelle Rae's album, Whatever a lot because it sounds like summer and it's just a fun album! On my walk today, I ended up listening to the title track a few times in a row and it got me thinking about how we need a balance in our lives of caring about things/worrying and letting things go/living with a whatever attitude. For me, personally, it all depends on the situation, but in general I'd like to think I live a "whatever" life. There's so much in life that I could worry about or let get me down, but I like to choose to let it go and let God and not let my circumstances determine my mood...my mood should be based on the reality that my God is in control and that I'm blessed and therefore I have an unspeakable joy that isn't determined on what goes on around me or what gets said to me. Some adults in my life, or just people in general, may view this/me as being immature and rebellious becau...

Hey All, So this one is for the ladies....sorry if there are any men who read this blog, but deal with it. ;P haha! A lot of you may have no clue what the word Hephzibah means and that's alright, I didn't til I heard Beckah Shae's song with this title, years ago. It literally means, "My delight is in her," and was used in terms of speaking to Isreal as a whole (Isiah 62:4) , but was, also, the name of King Hezekiah's wife (2 Kings 21:1). It doesn't just mean to delight in, however, it's, also, is "the protected one." Isn't that such a beautiful name? It brings a smile to my face, I'd like to think that my Father would use this word for me...I want Him to delight in me and I need His protection because on my own I'm lost. He loves us and He made us in His imagine, we are BEAUTIFUL to Him all on our own. In this world we live in, so much attention and focus is on being "perfect", but did you know that's that's lit...

Hey Blog Readers, So it's 11pm currently and I've been awake since 5:50 this morning when I woke up freaking out cuz I thought I had missed my alarm, all to realize it was Monday and I'm off and although I slept some after that it was restless sleep. haha! Oh well, I had a productive day of paying bills, reading some, catching up FB, and am almost done with the final season of Private Practice....not as productive as it could've been I suppose, but I'm off and for a day at home, I think it wasn't poorly spent. Paying bills isn't a fun thing to do, but it made it grateful to have the money to pay the people I owe and not only that I have a job that I love, but one that I dreadfully miss when I'm not there! Tonight as I was watching Private Practice, God told me that I needed to listen to the song Give Me Faith by Elevation Worship, that I needed to post it on FB and, also, needed to write a blog post. I had no idea what I'd be blogging about and so f...

Hello, So when you hear the word scar or scars does it bring to mind negative or positive? Do you think in terms of physical or emotional? Or both? For me, scars are a good thing...though they can be "ugly", they are proof that I survived something...that I am human and that I'm not perfect. When I was talking to my surgeon before I had surgery he asked if I was the type to be bothered by scars because I was going to have four of them...and he was surprised, when I said I could care less about the scars no matter how big or small. I have many scars, physically and emotionally and although some bring back painful memories if I think about how I got them that's a part of life and God has a purpose for every trial and tribulation I face so what do I have to be ashamed of.? Either we can let what tries to break us mold us and shape us into something stronger or we can let it win and defeat us. I choose to try my best of look at everything God sends my way as a lesson to b...

Hi Everyone, So, do you treat your Bible like cake for special occasions or bread for daily nourishment? Sadly I'm in between the two, but more in the realm of bread than cake. In reading a book called, "Preparing to Be a Helpmeet," the author brought up Esther and Ruth, and it made me pick up my Bible to reread they're stories; they are pretty strong and courageous woman! It got me wondering how I'd react if I was in their shoes as well as made me think about all the amazing stories in the Bible and how sometimes I feel that we, or maybe I should just say I, overlook the fact that they were real people with real feelings because I've heard/read the stories so many times. I know of course there aren't "real" superheros in the Bible, but considering Batman, Spiderman, etc don't actually exist it's fair to say that the many courageous men and women this book tells us about can be considered superheros. Even if you don't believe in God,...

Hey, So, this has been on my mind a lot lately, and although I just posted a few minutes ago, I feel I need to post this now or I never will. If you are friends with me at all, you probably know music is a HUGE part of my life and my all time favorites, I'll defend like I know them personally, weird maybe, but it's true. You'll probably, also, know that my favorite band is DAUGHTRY and one of my favorite male artists is Adam Lambert (both of whom I want to see SO bad this summer)!! I have seen Chris before and have seen Adam as well, but I've never seen DAUGHTRY and I'm a huge enough Glambert that I'd see Adam far more than just twice, and plus he's touring with QUEEN!! You probably are wondering where in the world I'm going with this, and I might loose some readers because of it, but I feel I have to get this off my chest. I'm sure, most of you know, even if you're not a big music person that Adam Lambert is gay...quite gay...I mean I've got...

Hey All, Does any else feel lonely sometimes even when they're with other people, or is it just me? I know God, has perfect timing and when it's my time for a boyfriend/husband it'll happen, but man, sometimes I end up wondering what's wrong with me? Girls younger than me have boyfriends and here I am, with my chocolate, my Bible, and Netflix, wondering where my prince is at. My heart, body, and soul long to be the center of some guy's world, for him to want nothing more than to come home to me after work and to live life with me; well of course I want God to come first before that, but you know what I mean, right? Love songs, movies, and novels all paint this perfect picture and although I know God is writing my "perfect" love story the last month or so it's been tough for me. I don't need a guy to complete me, God does that, but I still dream of the day when I'll be someone's other half. I think my loneliness, is partly, also, due to me h...

Hey All, So, God blessed me last night (well He's always blessing me, but you know what I mean) by allowing me to be able to watch the How Great is Our God video, again with some good friends/fellow believers. No matter how many times I watch this video it always has the same effect on me and I greatly encourage you guys to take the time to watch this, whether you share my belief in God or not. It talks, not only about how GREAT our God is, but goes over facts about some pretty cool stars and some of the beauty and miracle of the human body...it truly is incredible! No matter how many times I watch this, I'm in awe and brought to tears with knowing that the Star Breather and the Life Maker takes time for me....little old me who is SO small in the scheme of all that He has made yet He truly cares! It blows my mind and gives me such a peace that I can't describe! I've been a little stressed the last few days and, sure, I still have a lot going on in my life, but I KNOW ...

Hi All, So I know that I keep saying this, but I'm sorry I haven't been blogging very much lately. If you've ever been in so much pain it sucks all the energy out of you even before you get out of bed you might understand; but now I'm happy to say I've had the surgery and feel MUCH better! Still a tiny bit sore around the largest incision and a little bit more tired than "normal," but nothing to complain about. Anyways the subject of modesty is something that's been on my mind the last few weeks, so I figured I'd share a few thoughts. Now I won't be telling you what you can and what you can't wear, but I just wanted to put a few of my ideas out there. I had a whole blog post in my head a few weeks ago, but after working all that weekend I forgot most of it and haven't felt up to finishing this post since. I don't remember how I was going to phrase everything, so hopefully I can make this make sense. :) So first of all, I grew up wit...

Hey Everyone, What comes to mind when you hear the word "Religion"? To me, it brings to mind people who believe differently than I do telling me or fellow Christians that we are "religious" and that they think our "religion" is stupid/doesn't make any sense etc. I hardly ever hear it said in a form of reverence or pride from none believers and believers alike. While the words, in themselves, are not wrong and if you like to classify yourself as religious then that's perfectly fine, but for me, the words don't fit and I could easily say I can't stand them. Jesus Christ is my Savior, He is NOT my religion. I don't live by a set of rules or standards because otherwise I'm going to Hell; I choose to live my life a certain way because I respect and trust my God knows what's best for me. People may not get this, and even some fellow Christians may find my views insulting, but I really don't care. I know that may sound harsh, and m...