Waiting For Tomorrow

Hey All, So as the year of 2015 is coming to a close, next weekend, it's only natural to start thinking about your New Years' Resolutions and so that's kind of what this post will be about. More often than not, people make resolutions and they don't follow through with them, and honestly, until this past year, I've never really made any myself, partly due to that reason...This isn't a good or bad thing, but still it's the truth...I, however, encourage all you to claim 2016 as your year to [blank] and strive EVERY day to make that desire a reality! Some of the most common resolutions I hear of are about physical health (working out or eating healthier etc.) and while those are good things to strive for, I think that you should start with something else. More often than not, if you don't first strive to better your emotional/inward self, you won't be able to fully embrace becoming more healthy, physically. I'm not saying it has to be entirely one o...

Hello Everyone, Fair warning, this post may be repetitive of past blog entries from this year, but if you are new to my blog or even if not, I'm sure that some of it will still be fresh and hopefully helpful to you in some way. As the year of learning to love myself is drawing to a close, it's so encouraging to look back and see how far I've come since March of this year! I am much more at peace with myself and with my surroundings than I have been in maybe forever, and my perspective on so many things has changed, for what I believe to be the better. I've had numerous people tell me that they can see a change in me, even without me mentioning anything about my journey, and honestly, I feel as if, in some ways, I was "reborn" at the beginning of this year. I'm SO grateful to God for helping me walk through so much of my former baggage that I carried for far too long! Alright, so this post is going to be sort of a "tutorial" into how I was able to...

Hey All, First off I just realized that last year I posted 43 times and this year I have only posted 19 so far...that is quite the difference, and hopefully, next year I'll be better at writing when I have inspiration instead of waiting until it leaves me and I forget half of what I was going to post on. We'll see. I have no idea how many of you actually care about whether I post or not, so probably most of this is for my own future benefit, but that's okay. Anyways, obviously we are in the month of December and as some of you probably know, this month the camp I work at closes down which is rather difficult for me. I only have deep cleaning a couple of days, and our Christmas party, in which I get to go to my favorite place on earth and see some of my favorite people, but that's not the only hard part; it also means I'm pretty tight on money this month. Yes, I have another job, but camp pays my bills and some extra, so now I just have savings/extra money coming in ...

Hi Everyone, So unless you are just coming to my blog, and this is the first post you have read of mine, you know for a fact, that I'm a born-again Christian...at least I hope you know that for a fact! Anyways, my point is, that I'm not one to not bring up my faith in Jehovah on a very regular basis, however, proclaiming my faith is quite different then living it out. I can easily say that I love Jesus, but unless I live it out on a daily basis, it means nothing; it's all just empty words. (James 2:14-26) I would REALLY like to think that my life exemplifies Christ in pretty much everything I say and do, but I'm human so, obviously, that is not the case! Without going into details, God has convicted my soul about an area of my life that I let my sinful nature take over, and it really humbled me. I do not want there to be a space in between me and my Creator and I 100% do NOT want to cause Him to be disappointed in how I live my life. We alll make mistakes so I...

Hey, First off, I want to say I'm terribly sorry I haven't blogged in a long time. I have been busy with work, and just life, and every time I would sit down to write this post I'd start and then stop. I don't know if it was just I wasn't ready to write it, even though I thought I was, or if it was just the fact that God wanted me to wait...either way, this time, I 'm determined to actually finish and post it, even if I'm not 100% satisfied with how it's written or think that I could say more, etc. So as some of you who have read past posts of mine know, this is my year of learning to love myself , and since claiming that as my "goal" for this year, God has continually shown me ways in which to do that. One of which, is through my short relationship with someone I met this summer. Even though we recently ended things, and it was pretty hard at first, I trust God has a plan here. My ex really helped me believe that I am important, special, bea...

Hey All, So life has still been crazy since I last posted. My new job is pretty great and I'm very grateful, to God, for sending this opportunity my way! It's slightly "weird" being outside the kitchen for a change, but I enjoy mixing it up, learning new things, and getting this new avenue to show His love and light to my community! This enthusiasm about the new job doesn't mean that all my life has been amazing lately, and to be honest, parts of it have kind of sucked. Without getting into too many details, I'll just say my coworkers at camp are changing and despite my love of change, mostly, this change has made me bawl my eyes out several times, and I have a feeling it will continue to for awhile. That being said, I have had an overwhelming peace about it all this past week or so since I had a long talk with my Creator. It may sound crazy, but it was one of those conversations where I actually "heard" His voice whisper to my soul, and if I hadn...

Hey Everyone, So as I warned you all, I didn't post much at all this summer, except that once in the beginning of June, and since, my life has been a whirlwind. Summer camp, alone, can be crazy and drag in personal aspects of life, it can be pretty exhausting, but to say I love it would be an understatement. I pray your summer was filled with as much joy as mine was! There were many, many times where I felt like I couldn't go on, and God would just come and pick me up and give me such joy, peace, and strength, it could only be credited to Him alone! Just in the last eight hours, I found out I will be staying at camp a week longer, because my apartment won't be available until then, and that my second job wouldn't be taking me back on, even though I had been pretty much guaranteed a position starting next month. However, after the first few minutes of shock, God reminded me that it was all going to be okay, and it is! I have a job lined up, just need to call tomorrow and...

Hey All, In order to fully be able to change who you are and the world around you, you need to be willing to be vulnerable...completely and totally honest, with yourself, God and everyone you come in contact with. It is scary. It can be messy. It is HARD. BUT it is rewarding. It is healing. And it is worth all the pain, once it becomes a habit. Vulnerability needs to be seen as a strength, rather than a weakness.  I'm not one to wear makeup around the house, if I'm not going anywhere, or one who feels the need to put a full face of makeup on before I can go anywhere. However, I do rarely post pictures of myself, on social media without at least mascara on, or without a filter to at least help me look a little bit more "presentable" to the public. haha! Though, lately, I've become, more and more comfortable with little to no makeup on, and with going places without doing anything to my hair. I'm somewhat of a girly-girl, so I do like to put some effort int...

Hey All, First off, I just want to "warn" you guys, that I probably won't be blogging much after the next couple weeks, because my summer is about to start getting crazy! Plus, I like to avoid, "screens," and spend as much time outside as possible once the weather is nice and there are tons of people here! :) I will probably post a few times over the course of the summer, but my guess, is that it won't be regularly, again, until September. Anyways...when you hear the word, "worship," I bet you think of hymns or modern praise songs that we sing in church, correct? Well I'd like you to take a minute and try and see it in a different light too. Worship is a lifestyle. I've thought this way for awhile now, and my pastor recently touched on this subject, in one of his sermons , as well, so I figured I can't be wrong, right? In a recent post, I mentioned that I have a been a Christian since I was 4 years old and that I have a very persona...

Hello Beautiful People! Today is the day the Lord has made, so let us rejoice in His great goodness, shall we?! Here the weather is gorgeous out, and I'll probably go outside to do my Bible reading shortly, but first, I wanted to post something. We all know we won't live forever , and as I've said, a lot recently, it is important to love yourself and love life, buuuuut that said, there is, also, a time to weep and mourn, and it doesn't make you a bad person, if that is where you are at in life! Last post, I mentioned that, most of the time, our "problems," aren't really problems, and asked the question, "what really is a problem?" Granted, there are bad things in this world, and we will ALL face struggles and have times that we are just barely keeping our head above the water, but with God, we can all have hope that things will get better! There is a silver lining to EVERYTHING if you just take the time to look for it! I hope that, my recent inc...

Hey Everyone, I know that past blog posts have kind of gone over this, before, but how many of you actually, choose to live like you're dying? I don't know why, but I've been thinking about this concept a lot lately. I think it's partly to do with someone telling me that it's nice to see me happy all the time, again, the fact that I won't be getting to see my best friend much for the next three months, watching the show Chasing Life, etc. Someone I know, sent me a video yesterday about first world problems and although I don't suffer from this, enough to even say I suffer from it, it made me think. It made me think how sad it is that some people actually struggle with this, and what a miserable life they must live. Being hungry, your phone not fitting in your pocket, or being cold, are such trivial problems, it's ridiculous to even call them "problems." I mean, really, what are "problems," like seriously? For me, any struggle I face ...

Hi All, I'm not one of those people who make fan accounts for my favorite artists or TV shows or one who watches certain shows because the actors/actresses are gorgeous, but when it comes to Jesus, I'd definitely say I'm that girl. I'm not saying, there is anything wrong with doing those things, but in general, I don't have time, or care enough about celebrities, to do that. Sure, there are certain people, I keep up with more and "freak out," when they come out with new music, books, shows, etc, but that's not the biggest part of my life...not even close.  This topic came to mind this weekend, because Friday night I spent a number of hours watching Adam Lambert, interviews, stalking some of his fan accounts, and listening to the new music he had released; all of which I'm not ashamed of! haha! I'm a huuuge Glambert, as I believe, I've mentioned before, but really, I rarely do that, with him or anyone else. I'm one of those passionate ...

Hey Everyone, My last blog post was about comparison, and how it'll slowly kill you if you let it. We need to compare ourselves to ourselves and Jesus ONLY! If we don't, then we will end up in a deep depression and, trust me, depression suuuucks! I have struggled with depression in the past, as anyone who has read my blog, or knows me personally, probably knows, and I'm thankful to say that I'm in a MUCH better place in my life right now! I'm not saying, I won't be depressed in the future, because I'm sure I will....hopefully, for only brief amounts of time, but if I do, I KNOW that I'll get through it, because I have before, and God will not EVER change (Hebrews 13:8)! Today, I went through a few boxes, my bathroom, and some drawers in my bed room and threw away things I didn't need/want and organized the rest of it, in preparation for moving next week! I, surprisingly, only had two trash bags, of stuff (very heavy bags, mind you), but it still felt...

Hello All (sorry this is centered, I can't get it to go over for some reason),  Today is Wednesday, and so, naturally, it is Woman Crush Wednesday and normally, this is where you write a nice post about a woman in your life, but today, I did this to myself, instead. This may sound somewhat vain, but since this is the year of learning to love myself, I figured, it was okay! haha! I went and renewed my license today, and although, I'm not posting a picture of both of those, below are two pictures, and as you can see, I've changed a lot.  Me at almost 18 Me, today, at almost 21!<3 I think that in these pictures, you can see less of a change in my appearance, than some others, but I think you get the point. I have changed more in who I am and how I carry myself, then in my looks, so if you met the 18 year old me and remet me today, you'd probably be a bit surprised at how different I am. People who have known me for years and didn't se...

Hi Blog Readers, What comes to mind when you hear the word, "overwhelmed?" For most, I'm sure stress is one of the first words that comes to mind, if not the first, along with to-do lists, fear , work, etc...however, for this girl, Jesus comes to mind. That's right Jesus. I have a lot in my life, right now, that could get me overwhelmed...I have car appointments, renewing my license, packing, organizing things, moving, and around all that, working 5-6 days a week....however, I'm not overwhelmed by all this...yet. I'm sure I will be, when I see all my belongings in the middle of my living room, and I'm trying to pack it all in as few boxes as possible, but for now, I'm just excited that summer is nearly here! This means I get to live at camp for three months, get to spend pretty much all my time doing what I love with people that I love, AND in less than a month it'll be my, 21st, birthday and although age is, but a number, I'm SUPER EXCITED! ...

Hello Everyone, So, long time no post, huh? haha!...Anyways... We all, I'm sure, know the definition of rest and for some of you resting comes easy and others it's a struggle; I'm the latter. For each of us that struggle with resting, it probably stems from different things, but in the end, God says it's ok to rest and so that should give us some comfort. For the longest time, I subconsciously, associated resting with laziness (not for other people, generally, but for myself), but over this past month, or so, I've accepted that isn't the case. I thrive on being with other people, and doing something productive with my day. I'm one of those annoyingly happy and enthusiastic morning people, so for me, resting is hard. I can do a day or two of laziness/relaxation, but more than that, and I get anxious and fidgety...sometimes I can't even go a full day. I used to think this was a good thing, because to be productive was good, but I've come to learn it...

Hello, So, over the past couple weeks since I last posted, I have had several post ideas floating around in my head yet haven't actually taken the time to write them, so here I am, writing one....hopefully, soon I will get to writing down the other. For those of you who haven't read any of my other blog posts, or for those of you who don't know me personally, one of my jobs is working in the kitchen at a camp, and for a lot of people, it's a "crazy" thing to do. I will never understand it, myself, but in many people's minds, when I say the word, "camp" it translates in their mind, as "not a real job," which, to me, is completely absurd. While, yes, it isn't the highest paying job in the world, and I most certainly will not become rich, it is a real job....I get payed, I can pay my bills and truuust me, after a 14 hour day on my feet, I feel like I really worked! haha! That being said, it is more of a mission than an actual job. ...