This is the Year of....
Hey Everyone,
So, in my last post I talked about my month of depression and about being your own hero and now, I'm going to talk about what I plan to try and make this year into. Have any of you seen The Middle? Well it's a half an hour,comedy, show about a family who don't have a lot in the means of material things, but who manage to find the humor through it all. Last season, Sue decided to name her senior year of High school as the "Year of Sue," and even though her father thinks you shouldn't name things before you see what they turn out to be, she decided to name it and then make it into what she wants. I see both sides, but I lean more towards Sue's point of view, in this case.
This year, for me, is going to be the year of learning to love myself and relearning that each day is a new beginning. Last year was the year of freedom, of trying new things, and doing things I'd always wanted to do. After going through a period of depression like I just went through, it's hard not to see life through new lenses and feel like a kid, again, in a way. I feel like I've turned my life around and am "starting over," but with life experience and knowledge I, obiviously didn't have as a kid. haha! In the past, I've made myself believe that to truly love myself would be selfish, but I realize now, that in order be able to love God and others around me the way that God intended me too I NEED to love myself!
I believe that knowing who you are and loving yourself are two different things. For awhile now, I've known who I am, but I've let lies hold me back from loving myself. Ever since the middle of last summer I've been going through periods of depression, though not for nearly as long as this past time. I wasn't able to find a roommate, until now, (she's moving in today) and in the beginning, the thought of living on my own terrified me because I'm such a people person and because I've never lived alone before. However, He knew what I needed, and I needed to fall apart, I needed to put the past behind me and not live my life according to lies that I'd come to believe. I'm not saying that I won't let those thoughts back in my head from time to time, but I do know that I will NOT be letting them dictate my life and my feelings for any long period of time. I'm human and so, therefore, I will make mistakes and I am definitely not perfect, but I have been made new in Christ and each and every day His mercies, love, grace, and joy are new and so in that I place my trust. He is faithful and is CONSTANTLY finding ways to show me that He loves me, whether it be through a song, a post, a verse from His Word, or through another person; He has NOT forgotten me and He hasn't forgotten YOU either! I know I said this last post, but PLEASE do NOT let your past hold your future in chains! Everyone is cable of changing who they are and He is there throught it all!
Obviously, we aren't guaranteed tomorrow...we aren't even promised the next minute....but I fully believe that if we set goals for ourselves and make ourselves accountable to others, that we can make changes in our lives. This blog and my friends/co-workers are truly a Godsend! Ultimately, without God, change and life in general, would be impossible, but since I have Him in me, NOTHING is impossible! Since claiming this year as the year of learning to love myself and remembering that today is day one of the rest of my life, I have heard countless songs and verses on Air1 that reiterate this, as well as seen numerous Instagram and Facebook posts about these subjects; God sure has a way of confirming things doesn't He?
My challenge to you all, is to name this beautiful year of 2015 before it's over and try and live each day like it's your last day to make that goal a reality. We can't control the future, but we can control how we handle the future. It may be unknown to us, but it isn't to Him so I hope in that, you can find peace!
So, my final question to you is, what will this year be for you? The year of learning to find joy no matter the circumstances? The year of learning to be patient with His timing? The year of learning to not stress and giving Him ultimate control? The year of surrendering your life to Him and becoming born again? What will this year be for you?
Until Next Time!
<3Abi
So, in my last post I talked about my month of depression and about being your own hero and now, I'm going to talk about what I plan to try and make this year into. Have any of you seen The Middle? Well it's a half an hour,comedy, show about a family who don't have a lot in the means of material things, but who manage to find the humor through it all. Last season, Sue decided to name her senior year of High school as the "Year of Sue," and even though her father thinks you shouldn't name things before you see what they turn out to be, she decided to name it and then make it into what she wants. I see both sides, but I lean more towards Sue's point of view, in this case.
This year, for me, is going to be the year of learning to love myself and relearning that each day is a new beginning. Last year was the year of freedom, of trying new things, and doing things I'd always wanted to do. After going through a period of depression like I just went through, it's hard not to see life through new lenses and feel like a kid, again, in a way. I feel like I've turned my life around and am "starting over," but with life experience and knowledge I, obiviously didn't have as a kid. haha! In the past, I've made myself believe that to truly love myself would be selfish, but I realize now, that in order be able to love God and others around me the way that God intended me too I NEED to love myself!
I believe that knowing who you are and loving yourself are two different things. For awhile now, I've known who I am, but I've let lies hold me back from loving myself. Ever since the middle of last summer I've been going through periods of depression, though not for nearly as long as this past time. I wasn't able to find a roommate, until now, (she's moving in today) and in the beginning, the thought of living on my own terrified me because I'm such a people person and because I've never lived alone before. However, He knew what I needed, and I needed to fall apart, I needed to put the past behind me and not live my life according to lies that I'd come to believe. I'm not saying that I won't let those thoughts back in my head from time to time, but I do know that I will NOT be letting them dictate my life and my feelings for any long period of time. I'm human and so, therefore, I will make mistakes and I am definitely not perfect, but I have been made new in Christ and each and every day His mercies, love, grace, and joy are new and so in that I place my trust. He is faithful and is CONSTANTLY finding ways to show me that He loves me, whether it be through a song, a post, a verse from His Word, or through another person; He has NOT forgotten me and He hasn't forgotten YOU either! I know I said this last post, but PLEASE do NOT let your past hold your future in chains! Everyone is cable of changing who they are and He is there throught it all!
Obviously, we aren't guaranteed tomorrow...we aren't even promised the next minute....but I fully believe that if we set goals for ourselves and make ourselves accountable to others, that we can make changes in our lives. This blog and my friends/co-workers are truly a Godsend! Ultimately, without God, change and life in general, would be impossible, but since I have Him in me, NOTHING is impossible! Since claiming this year as the year of learning to love myself and remembering that today is day one of the rest of my life, I have heard countless songs and verses on Air1 that reiterate this, as well as seen numerous Instagram and Facebook posts about these subjects; God sure has a way of confirming things doesn't He?
My challenge to you all, is to name this beautiful year of 2015 before it's over and try and live each day like it's your last day to make that goal a reality. We can't control the future, but we can control how we handle the future. It may be unknown to us, but it isn't to Him so I hope in that, you can find peace!
So, my final question to you is, what will this year be for you? The year of learning to find joy no matter the circumstances? The year of learning to be patient with His timing? The year of learning to not stress and giving Him ultimate control? The year of surrendering your life to Him and becoming born again? What will this year be for you?
Until Next Time!
<3Abi
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