Working on My Masterpiece
Hello All,
So since I last wrote I'm feeling slightly more me...though I know I have a long way to go before I have my roar back (see past last post to understand what I am referring to). I think the biggest change in such a short time is the fact that I realized that I'm losing myself, because the first step to fixing a problem is realizing there is one. God and I are working on this masterpiece and all though I'm not perfect, I will someday become an even better version of who I was before this last year and half I just know it.
In the last few days I've spoken with some people about how I've been feeling and I think getting it out and being accountable is helpful. I have, also, cried a decent amount which I hate, but it was a good release. Another big thing is I've come up with a schedule for my morning that includes me and Jesus time. Through the last months of being home and not working, I've slowly stopped having a schedule for that as sometimes I'm really sick and since I'm mostly home I figure I'll do it later in the day and it's okay if I don't do it as I'm eating breakfast or right after....though then it becomes that my Bible time is just prayer and worship music somedays, which is better than nothing, but especially during a tough period it's better to have structure so I'm glad I'm getting back into one.
I'm not sure where I was really going with this post I just want to encourage all of you out there that no matter what you are going through that some form of structured Jesus time is so important (even if it's just five minutes). It won't change your circumstances, but it'll change how you view them. If we constantly get anxious about the past, present and future that will leave us no time for the joy that He wants us to experience in this life. I totally understand the struggle, as a human, but the more we focus on the fact that He has a plan for EVERYTHING and that every breath we breathe is borrowed, we will try more to live each second as a gift rather than a bomb that is about to explode any second. I've lately felt like I'm in a nightmare that won't end, since this medical stuff has almost been going on for a year and a half, but I realize that He has not failed me ONCE in my 24 years,so I'm choosing peace over anxiety this minute because He is greater than the illness and my money struggles....He will provide. This is not to say that I won't have a panic attack later because I am human and I have emotions, but I know that He is the King of the World and can handle that I am not perfect.
I hope this post finds you find well and that you are able to choose joy today, but if you are struggling I pray you have a good support system in your life. If not, my Instagram is in the "contact me" section and I'm here for anyone who needs a listening ear!
Until Next Time!
<3Abigail
So since I last wrote I'm feeling slightly more me...though I know I have a long way to go before I have my roar back (see past last post to understand what I am referring to). I think the biggest change in such a short time is the fact that I realized that I'm losing myself, because the first step to fixing a problem is realizing there is one. God and I are working on this masterpiece and all though I'm not perfect, I will someday become an even better version of who I was before this last year and half I just know it.
In the last few days I've spoken with some people about how I've been feeling and I think getting it out and being accountable is helpful. I have, also, cried a decent amount which I hate, but it was a good release. Another big thing is I've come up with a schedule for my morning that includes me and Jesus time. Through the last months of being home and not working, I've slowly stopped having a schedule for that as sometimes I'm really sick and since I'm mostly home I figure I'll do it later in the day and it's okay if I don't do it as I'm eating breakfast or right after....though then it becomes that my Bible time is just prayer and worship music somedays, which is better than nothing, but especially during a tough period it's better to have structure so I'm glad I'm getting back into one.
I'm not sure where I was really going with this post I just want to encourage all of you out there that no matter what you are going through that some form of structured Jesus time is so important (even if it's just five minutes). It won't change your circumstances, but it'll change how you view them. If we constantly get anxious about the past, present and future that will leave us no time for the joy that He wants us to experience in this life. I totally understand the struggle, as a human, but the more we focus on the fact that He has a plan for EVERYTHING and that every breath we breathe is borrowed, we will try more to live each second as a gift rather than a bomb that is about to explode any second. I've lately felt like I'm in a nightmare that won't end, since this medical stuff has almost been going on for a year and a half, but I realize that He has not failed me ONCE in my 24 years,so I'm choosing peace over anxiety this minute because He is greater than the illness and my money struggles....He will provide. This is not to say that I won't have a panic attack later because I am human and I have emotions, but I know that He is the King of the World and can handle that I am not perfect.
I hope this post finds you find well and that you are able to choose joy today, but if you are struggling I pray you have a good support system in your life. If not, my Instagram is in the "contact me" section and I'm here for anyone who needs a listening ear!
Until Next Time!
<3Abigail
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