New Year New Me

Hey All,

It's about seven months since I've blogged and there are so many reason for that!...had the most horrible summer of my life for countless reasons along with the woman I posted about last May passing away, had a lot of romantic disappointments etc....BUT that year is in the past and this is the future...2017!!! I have not been SO excited for a year to be over and another to begin in a long time and I'm so grateful! I realize that a year is a just a time frame and that each and every second, each and every minute, we can start fresh if we choose to do so, so the whole "new year new me" mantra is kinda silly, but this year it fits!

I'm not huge into resolutions, but I do like to pick phrases or set goals for myself that I try to live out and strive to make a daily part of my life each year and in the years after as well; which anyone who's read my past posts will know! This year I plan to make big changes in my life and although it's terrifying it's, also, exciting! I've been wanting to post about this for a couple months, but didn't want to in case things got back to my boss before I talked to him first....because a big part of the change this coming year is I'm, hopefully, switching career paths...SHOCKER for those who know me and know how passionate I am about my job, but it's true.

 I have blogged about the camp I work at and how I feel it is a real job despite what people may say or think, and how I feel as if it is a big part of my purpose in life, and I still feel no differently....just feel like God wants me to put that purpose in the past/on hold for the next couple years. Camp ministry is a HUGE part of my purpose on earth, I believe that with everything in me, but I, also, feel God nudging me to take a step back and try something new. I have been in food service and camp ministry for about seven years now, and as much as I enjoy working so much, and working my life a way because it's not the highest paying job, I need to take sometime to live separate from work as well....it was a very difficult realization, but an important one, and one I can't wait to see play out over the next year!

As hard as it is to think of leaving my camp home, it's not going anywhere and I can always visit and keep in touch with the people, which is a huge blessing! Mainly the reasons I'm leaving are because I want a set schedule, I want a job that isn't so hard on my back, I want a roommate, I want to save money, I want weekends off, I don't want to move three times a year, and I want to have one job instead of two...My hope is that by the Fall I will have a job, and an apartment in more of a city and be able to have enough of a change that I can start fresh, but not be far enough away that I can't easily visit friends/family and that I don't have to change doctors and everything. If anyone, from camp reads this I do plan to stay through the summer, unless a job presents itself that I can't pass up that prevents that!

This has been a process of learning to let go of my desires and realize that God's plan, although, different than my own, is the best one, and all I have to do is surrender and I'll live to my fullest potential. I used to think that I wanted to be at camp a decade and then move on, but for now, He has other plans...I, honestly, don't believe my time in camp ministry is over, so we'll see what He has in store  after a couple years break from everything. I'm thrilled to try new experiences and and learn new things and meet new people. In the next couple months, I'm going to start seriously looking at apartments and start applying to jobs in April and May. :)

I wanted this post to be an update on my plans for those who know me and, also, to encourage all who may happen to read this. Follow His lead, listen for His voice, and take a step out in faith even when it feels as if, you must be hearing Him wrong. He may be calling you to do something that you didn't think He'd want you to do, but that doesn't mean that He is wrong, it just means that He can see things that we can't and we just need to place all our trust in Him. If you follow His lead He will give you a passion for whatever its is and He will open doors and move mountains...all you have to do is trust Him and take a step upon the water.

I probably could add more to this and I might later on, but for now, I'll share and hope that this new year is all you hope it to be, and that you live each moment as if it could be your last!

Until Next Time!
<3Abigail