Waiting For Tomorrow

Hey Everyone, So, who, reading this, has ever felt not good enough for someone; whether it be a parent, a friend, a significant other, or God? Well, if you answer no to that question, I'm pretty sure you're lying, because, I think, this a universal feeling, no matter what your story is. No matter how confident you are, and how great your relationships are with those around you, it's completely normal to not feel good enough from time to time. Have you seen Empire? It's an INCREDIBLE show filled with drama, stunning talent, and some laughs too, centered around a recording studio and it's owners' family. One of the main characters, Jamal (Jussie Smollett), is gay, and in his father's eyes,that's a huge crime. Because of this, Jamal is verbally and physically abused, and ends up writing the song " Good Enough " as a cry to his father. I can relate the song to many people in my own life, and it's become one of my all time favorites; however, ...

Hi All, So the title for the post might be confusing to some, but let me explain the reason I believe they are two different things. Happiness is based on your circumstances and your relationships with other people, while joy, true joy, isn't. Happiness changes from moment to moment based on your reactions to what goes on around you while joy overflows from your soul and pours into how you live your life. I've known the difference of these two for awhile now, but in the past weeks that I've been trying hard to love myself, I'm relearning this time and time again. 1 Peter 1: 8-9 "Though you have not seen Him, you love Him and even though you do not see Him now, you believe in Him and are filled with an expressible and glorious joy, for you are recieving the goal of your fatih, the salvation of your souls." John 16:22 "So with you; Now is your time of grief, but I will see you again and you will rejoice and no one will take away your joy." James 1:2-3 ...

Hey All, So I know I've posted several times based on Lecrae's song lyrics, but hey, he's my favorite artist and so I'm about to do it again. His song " Got Paper " has been an anthem of mine for some time now, and since this subject is one that comes up in my life often, I figured it's about time I blogged about it too. I do not make a lot of money, even between two jobs,  and working almost every single day. This, however, doesn't bother me like some say it should, and for that I'm grateful! God has allowed me to make enough to pay my bills and to have enough money, also, to buy some fun things, as well, so I don't go completely crazy! I understand I could save every penny I have that doesn't go towards bills, but what's the fun in that, and what good would that do me? I get emergencies come up, and eventually, I'll probably have kids, a husband and it won't just be me who I'll be budgeting my money for, but that's WHY...

Hey Everyone, So, in my last post I talked about my month of depression and about being your own hero and now, I'm going to talk about what I plan to try and make this year into. Have any of you seen The Middle? Well it's a half an hour,comedy, show about a family who don't have a lot in the means of material things, but who manage to find the humor through it all. Last season, Sue decided to name her senior year of High school as the "Year of Sue," and even though her father thinks you shouldn't name things before you see what they turn out to be, she decided to name it and then make it into what she wants. I see both sides, but I lean more towards Sue's point of view, in this case. This year, for me, is going to be the year of learning to love myself and relearning that each day is a new beginning. Last year was the year of freedom, of trying new things, and doing things I'd always wanted to do. After going through a period of depression like I just ...