Waiting For Tomorrow

Hello All, So since I last wrote I'm feeling slightly more me...though I know I have a long way to go before I have my roar back (see past last post to understand what I am referring to). I think the biggest change in such a short time is the fact that I realized that I'm losing myself, because the first step to fixing a problem is realizing there is one. God and I are working on this masterpiece and all though I'm not perfect, I will someday become an even better version of who I was before this last year and half I just know it.  In the last few days I've spoken with some people about how I've been feeling and I think getting it out and being accountable is helpful. I have, also, cried a decent amount which I hate, but it was a good release. Another big thing is I've come up with a schedule for my morning that includes me and Jesus time. Through the last months of being home and not working, I've slowly stopped having a schedule for that as sometimes I...

Hello All, As I believe I previously mentioned since last August of 2017 I've been  constantly dizzy and not myself. I worked part time from sometime that month til Thanksgiving week of that year when I felt pretty much 100%...though on and off I had to take a day or two off due to dizzy spells. Come this August I've been out of work completely because I've been dealing with the same thing and no answers as to why....as you can imagine this has taken a toll on me. I'm mentally, physically, and emotionally beyond drained. I've been fighting a panic attack all day pretty much and I just want to sleep, and wake up and have this all be a horrid nightmare. The thing that kills me the most is that the people that have met me in the last year and half or so don't even know the "real" me. Sure they know parts of me, but they know broken me.....they know the me that cries in doctors offices, can't remember anything, has a short fuse, is introverted, goes to...